i think i can die. like any time now. life isnt normal.

 I am surprised that I am not upset :)

its so demoralising when efforts is not directly proportional to results. this is shit.

 i don't like this kind of waiting..it has became an habit :( 麻烦!!!!!!

Love and relationships are seriously meant for those who have plenty of time on their hands.

the emotional up downs ain't easy to deal with. So once you are in it, live with it. 

the SI unit of relationships= MONTHS  (quoted: Perry TEO) HAHAHAHAHA..

handicraft seriously isnt my forte. now i wonder how to salvage my mistake. BASKET!

off to the comfort of air con room for readings..

since i've got some time before lecture starts, i shall do some blogging.

wat i've done these days: nothing much except for catching up with readings, doing projects. and i've been down on my luck these days and i realise when one is suay, everything goes wrong. the coming weeks gonna be hell. tattoo presentation coming up, 2 more tests, viva, lab practical test, practical quiz. after all these is cleared, here comes the finals. WTH. i really need a break. work never seems to be ending.

went out with fy and pple the other day to bugis for movie. didn really wanna go at first cuz it juz turns me off having to go home later alone. but then, i tot i better pass fy his pants if not for 100 yrs we probably wun see each other and his pants is gonna rot with me. so i went. and then, wilson's bro was there, another friend that i dunno was there and benny's gf was there. then i almost mistaken another couple (a ns guy with gf) as their friends. hahaha..well..too many new pple for me to digest at one go. felt a bit cheated cuz apparently i was told it was the usual people thats why i went. then turn out to be a whole lot of new people. hahahaha..and the bloody fy said he ACTUALLY wanted to meet me on sunday to collect his stuff instead. idiot loh.. he shld have said earlier!!

we went for movie. pandora or dunno wat.. it suck but well..i treat it as a destressing session. then the guys were talking abt ns all the way and i finally see the talkative side of wilson. he practically couldn shut his mouth. i think he talked more than benny that day! hahaha..fy and benny both injured their legs so we had 2 limping man walking ard. HAHAHAHA..had dinner at nydc, shopped ard a bit then went home.

sunday was spent trying to salvage my lab report, tried doing some readings of interpersonal effectiveness readings. i tot i was supposed to meet cindy but end up cancelled. so slacked at home. watched 2 movies at night. twilight and anacondas. hahahaha..

ok i think i got to go. a new post after so long!


probably we've reached the point of saturation. nothing seems exciting anymore. i wonder whats gonna become of us..

 alarm has been failing me as and when it like resulting in my waking up in fright every morning and rushing out to school like some ah siao. bloody hell!!!!!!! i shall set my phone alarm, my mum's phone alarm, my mum's alarm clock! IF STILL DUN WORK i chop my head!

life is tiring these work. sch in the day. projects and readings in the night. sch again. free days at home is lab reports and projects. weekend work plus tuition and the cycle starts again. the only thing to look forward now is amino chalet. but cindy not staying over. sian.

gave myself a break today. NO WORK AT ALL after sch ended. dun even wanna do my readings. shall study tmr instead. 

 school has started..damn sian. lucky is a 3 day week this sem for even weeks and 4 day week for odd weeks so not as bad as before. and sometimes if heng can still hitch rides from perry back from school. 

besides school, would be work and tuitions. from next week onwards, all weekends will be tutions in the morning and amino collagen in the afternoon. i think is going to be damn exhausting. because of work, i got to squeeze all my work on weekdays. my projects lab reports readings and all..super tiring..BUT I NEED MONEY so i got to ENDURE!!! and the shit thing is my sec 4 tuition is ending after O levels meaning another source of income gone..die..

oh..one great thing to mention. I WENT BOWLING last friday..that was like the 3rd time in my entire life. needless to say i was dreading it big time. but no choice, collagen outing..got to go..haiz. as expected i was the lowest score. pple there all bowl like god. sian. and they very KINDLY allowed me to multiply my points by 2. how humilating..hahahahaha..

then was some moment of truth game suggested by benny..almost died in that game. i think i must have 得罪 alot of pple in the game..wilson especially..feel damn guilty. fy say wilson's faced changed when i say he not handsome! hahahahahaha..shit loh..

but the good thing is they didn play the wat' i love you' game..i really cannot imagine that, sure laugh my ass off. nutcase loh. but the best thing that happened during our amino collagen work was knowing new friends. its rare for me to continue to keep in touch with colleagues even after work ended..hahahaha..

then was jap cuisine night at cj's place. the thing i conclude was that though it was fun but its far too troublesone and tiring. hahahah..we made sushi, japanese noodles, gyoza, green tea, tako pachi, mochi, green tea cake, teppanyaki chicken!! A feast loh..and we MADE ONEH ONEH and KUEH for zh and roy, part of their beleted birthday surprise. i think we shld give up the idea of opening blogshop and embark on oneh oneh business..cuz it really tastes super nice..my mum and sis all said so!!! hahahahaa..

ok..shall go sleep alr. i know this post ended aruptly..BUT I DUN CARE!! HAHAHAHHAHA..

i know i haven been writing for like ages. so since i am so free now, probably i can do some updates..

I have been working in meji roadshows and exhibitions these days because for the entire 3 months holidays, i couldn get a proper admin job. first was selling meji chocloates and candies at shaw house then was selling amino collagen at health exhibitions. standing for 8hrs is really straining to the legs but with money coming in, its definitely than rotting at home.

      


life besides work these days was failed mango pudding experiments, sushi making. birthday parties, visit to the science centre. tuition.

now the next thing to look forward to is the japanese cuisine night, our buffet treat from lottery winnings and zh plus roy's 21st birthday celebration.

feel like money is still not enough with so many things to buy. new phone, save for travelling, blogshop, a new wallet, clothes etc..haiz..

It would be good to live in a world where nobody needs anybody. each can live independently and do whatever the mind tells us to.

i know this is way too long ago to be mentioned  only now and i feel so sorry for delaying this post till now. firstly is because i never liked blogging for various reasons i think i mentioned a long time ago and secondly cause i've been so busy mugging. finally exams are over and  i think it is time that i really get my ass down and blog about my birthday and to show my appreciation to those that needs to be thanked! but its over a mth ago and as usual i am wouldn go so much into the details and i will most probably blog watever that comes to my mind! lengthy or not i dunno!!!! hahaha..

i was quite afraid that nobody wld turn up on that day. especially when the time gets nearer i got more worried. but thankfully..only 2 person didn make it :) and i was truly very happy that those that i invited turned up :) it shows i meant something to them and they gave me enough 'face' to come..hahahaha..i think my family especially my mum and my sis. they did help alot in the preparation.

my family aunties and uncles all came.  helped me collect my cake, bought the drinks and helped to to all the miscellaneous stuff. thanks charlotte charmaine and charlene for the message board and gathering everybody to write their wishes on it. really nice. now its hanging on my wall!!

not forgetting the VIPs (cindy, zh, wj, cj, wendy, keith, bryan,royston). tania too!!!! they helped me deco and set up the place. it would be a terrible if it wasnt for them. i had classes that day and by the time i reached it was already 5 plus. imagine, i didn had their help me and my family would be in a total rush and chaos. hahaha..and thats not all. they BAKED me a cake, got me all my favourite clothes, bag, made me a huge jigsaw and the best bulletin board!!! they were really really very very nice. i loved it to the max. ithe best gifts ever..zheng hong especially, thanks for being my photographer and helped me take so many nice photos and do all the editing despite ur backache (hopefully u can recover soon) seriously come to think of it i really think i didn deserve all the efforts and hardwork..the number of times they met up to prepare my presents really make me feel damn touched. i know u guys have sch, exams work and yet u all meet up so many nights juz for me. really thank you!!

also my best friends (soon mei charmaine denise) though we hardly met nowadays and that we weren't as close as before but u guys will always have a special place in my heart!!! please meet up more!!! i am super free now ok!!! and u guys really surprised me by collaborating with cindy. hahaha..and all the handmade cards by u guys were beautiful!!!!!

and those who took the time and efforts to gave me birthday cards that i requested (andy perry lijia marcus carene chingtung tania) no matter the messages inside was long or short, nonsense or sincere i am still happy that u guys remembered by request!! jerome also..though u came very late but better late than never!

oh ya..teng yee and cheryl too!!! they gave me a personalised thumbdrive with my name on it. heard that teng yee got scalded when making the keychain, felt so bad about it. i am seriously impressed by her artistic skills..if only i have one quarter of her art talent!! hahaha..thanks for the gift!

and jereld too!!! for the rocky road. frankly speaking i haven finished eating it. i still have some in my fridge but its really very delicious! xin wei and president too..thanks for being the first few to come!! haha..u guys erased my fear of having no guests that day..wahaha..i know u guys played a big role in finishing up the food!!! and shi qian, i am still waiting for my super beleted bday cake that u owe me cuz u cldn make it to my party. i will claimed frm u this coming aug..u better watch out!!!!!!

s12 (cindi kw winnie jeremy daniel wallace nichols zi xiang). though i didn managed to invite all but i am glad that those invited made it!! especially winnie, i thought she wouldn be coming but in the end she turned up!!! i must admit that i haven been a very good classmate since i ps most of the activities (not that i meant it) but yet u guys still came to my party. my 21st birthday wouldn be a complete one without u all..really.

dance (jiale cailing tracy guohao ah pok ryan keyun). when i saw them i really missed the times when we had our trainings and camps. all the sweat and laughter it was all very wonderful memories. being in chinese dance and knowing u guys was one of the best things that happened in my jc life. and as ever u guys are always a happy crowd and i enjoyed the company and the catching up that night was great. it was good that all of u guys are doing well!! have a dance outing soon (sentosa part 2 :mr jiale yeo u shld know wat to do right??)

all the pictures were up in facebook! i hope i didn miss anybody out and if i did its not intentional!! i really had a great night and i will remember it for life. u people are my greatest gift already :)

mugging was super unproductive today. worse than yesterday. probably cuz had a lunch too full. we were laughing our heads off with cj trying badly to learn japanese and to WRITE Japanese. previously thought that making him write jap can shut his mouth and distract me and cindy a little lesser but it got worse. he came up with a list of jap names in hiragana and katagana making me guess. then we diverted his attention through the mind map..wahahaha..secret!!!!!!! then we all got so involved that at least I practically dunno what i was reading about anymore. the whole 4 hrs i completed leass than a chapter!!! still on colonialisation..hahahaha..thats all i remembered. now got to re read the notes. the reason why cj is so free is cuz he can actually forgot to bring his notes when his purpose of meeting us was to MUG!!!!! OMG!!!!

anyway cindy i heard the mugging place will be till 9 everyday. so see if u wanna go there tmr night. hahaha..dun kill too much monsters its bad to the books!!!! hahahaa..now i am gg to work hard. nonetheless the birthday post. i still remember but i know its gonna be a lengthy one and seriously i think now isnt the period to blog abt that. but still i will blog...probably after exams. all things got to wait for now!!!!! hahahahaha... ciao..

Dinner at MUTHU's CURRY!! OMG! followed by movie can't remember the title...oh..chun li! it was a hilarous show but with a pretty female lead.. hahaha..


then monday (actual birthday) surprise at his house! me and cindy pretended to go to his hse to buy clothes and the rest came later and surprised him with a cake and our handmade huge 'card'!







The birthday boy













shit. i got myself into some shit trouble that i really freaking regret now. hopefully things will turn out fine..please!!!!

found some ancient photos that bought smiles to my face..haha..have a look. we have really changed.


the watermelon eating competition


when all dun have car license and are still small size enough to squeeze.


when kite flying was the cheap and fun.


when we were like  idiots playing twister happily..haha..


beheaded..haha..

i decided i have been neglecting this blog for way too long so i decide to do some updates. as much as sch work and tuition is killing me..but i never forget to have my regular dose of fun. since i am reminded not to be over detailed (tendergrill incident) and i alr cannot recall tmuch of the details i shall again let the pictures do the talking.. below are pics taken during cny..

 

 

  

 

  

  

 

rest pls refer to facebook. i am sleepy..goodnight :)

the sight of his face suddenly irks me now.

yesterday was one of the weirdest day ever. firstly, i stepped into the Lt without seeing ching tung alr there in our usual seats. i went off to sit behind her and its only when one of our friends came and asked why are we sitting separately then we realised we missed each other. i swear i really didn see her when i came in. i think is 鬼遮眼. furthermore before i left house in the morning i couldn find my ipod. i know it has to be in my sch bag cuz i was still using it the day before. i searched my sch bag first time, cant find. search 2nd time, emptied all the stuff in the same bag still cannot find. put the stuffs back into my bag and went to search elsewhere (other bags) still can't find. so i went back to search my sch bag again for the third time and finally found it. weird.

the weirdest thing was me ching tung jereld and shi qian wore the same colour to sch. i think we look freaking funny walking ard sch together and pple kept asking did we coordinate the colours to wear? obviously we didn. me and ching tung recently always have colour crashes. plus now i permed my hair and pple say we look like sisters (very bad!!!! hahahahaha).





i just received the email regarding my forensic minor thing. i got to complete 2 life sci modules first as part of the minor. helll. i freaking got a C+ last sem for life sci and now i got to take it AGAIN. PLUS i am not GUARANTEED the minor. got to fight with other 29 idiots for the exclusive complusory Evidence of Forensic module so as to fulfil the minor requirement, damn shitty, HOW!!!!!

anyway, i officially started studying finally!!!!! good. now on my super hate organic chem and after 2 days i only completed 2.5 chapters (read and haven practice qns) and i've got like 12.5 more chapters to complete and 4 other modules. exams like in 3 weeks time? kill me please. sian...

i feel so proud of myself that i managed to drag myself up this morning at 5am to go for lecture. despite ching tung not going, i am forcing myself to go. cuz i feel that if i dun go, i will be wasting the time sleeping at home. if i go, though i might not understand the lect at least i am there and i ATTEMPTED to understand. was surprised to see president attending the lect also but he was sleeping his way through. might as well dun go. I amazingly didn sleep. hahaha

and there is this guy from chem also who apparently recognizes me and remembers my name and said hi to me whenever we see each other in sch. but i seriously cannot recall his name. not a bit of impression at all. now he is sitting beside me and i am contemplating whether to ask for his name again (but i think like abit rude cuz since we hi bye so many times and been in the same lab so many times and now that i say i dunno his name is damn mean). probably i shld continue acting like i know him to save the embarassment.

counting down to time for my duty at halloween bazzar (sell eclairs and cream puffs). sci club is showing skeleton key tonight at LT27. tix is for only 2 bucks. if nus is in tampines, i wld go and i will gather pple to go. hahaha.. anyway, i dunno whether to attend the make up lect today (6pm to 8pm) and another 2 hrs some other day (not known yet) or attend it on sat (9am-1pm). seems like the majority is going for the sat one but i am lazy to go back sch on sat. but if the 2nd 2 hr make up falls on a sat its worse. haiz..

i am hungry now. shld haf gone for lunch. maybe later steal some eclairs to eat but i think the com will kill me. they are proposing that all the canvassing money goes to dnd now (previously was 50-50) but seriously, if all the money goes to dnd, who will have the motivation to canvass? i dun think everyone is so committed to the com that they are willing to work for free every other weekends?? maybe is only me and ching tung who are the not-so-committed ones. hahahaha..there is a canvassing this sat at orchard, suppose to put on make up and be ghosts for 2 hrs to scare kids and probabaly also do make up for kids and i heard they can earn like 200-300 bucks for the whole com. sounds fun but i think the make up will probably spoil my skin so i am giving it a miss.

going off...byebyeebyebe

since cindy is unable to blog this week. i will blog for her. hahaha

what have i done the past week:

besides sch

thursday: met up with andy and perry for dinner at E hub follows by thunder tropic movie. i dun like the show but apparently the other 2 like it. had a hard time coordinating everybody and in the end only 2 turned up. i predict some trouble for our bangkok trip seriously.

Friday: movie again with ching tung due to the sucky timetable. we watched butterfly lovers. not bad but still think wu zhun cant act and the way he speaks utterly spoil the show.

saturday: canvassing for dnd com. went all the way to choa chu kang early in the morning to pack goodie bags for the mass walk event on sunday for choa chu kang elderly. weather was freaking warm and i felt pretty sad cuz we haven got to know who more pple from our com yet. except for this guy called andrew. andrew again. we could only suspect who is from our com. how sad. lunch was pathetically 0.5 hrs for us and we ate at some HK cafe. anyway, we eaned like 17 bucks for (10am-3pm work) cuz apparently, half of the income goes to dnd com.

then met cindy at ang mo kio to finally shop amk in detail. the previous time we were there bryan was ard, so not too nice to shop with a guy tagging behind. this time round i bought 2 sandals one for myself, one for my mum. then was dinner at S11, we had frog porridge which was really delicious. then met bryan at bishan mrt station. me and cindy were like sua gus, we hardly take the red line and didn know bishan's met platform was underground. hahahah..then we trained back to bedok (east our favourite) for our singing session. oh no, to be exact, we dropped at kembangan and chee jeng drove us to bedok. bryan bought some mushroom meatball thingy over at old chang kee. ( i am trying to recall as much details as possible now, earlier on i had a hard time recalling wat i did on sat, i feel like i have 老人痴呆症 and i seriously dunno how cindy can blog one week events in detail..hahaha) singing part was as usual fun but i think cindy is going to kill me cuz i left her to sing many half songs alone. i shall go listen more so that i can sing also. hahaha..then was supper at 85, my favourite bar chor mee followed by a round of brainstorming on wat to do on sunday. we talked abt escape (chee jeng dying to go but cindy is scared of the rides), play badmintion which i dun want, bowling (the more i dun want), nebo, go science centre, go sentosa, go ice skating (but cannot cuz keith not out), eat vegetarian food, cycling at east coast (which i think will rain so not good) blah blah..the conclusion was meet up at e hub first, let cindy take a look at the rides b4 deciding to go to escape anot.

sunday: cindy got last minute tuition and i got haf dinner with family cuz is my mum's birthday. so i didn join the rest for vegetarian food (which they say is damn nice but i missed it) then we went to nebo. super nice of chee jeng to come all the way back to tamp to fetch me to e hub :0 played at nebo for a few hours (taboo, pictonary, the headband game, aeroplane game: me and cindy won!!!!!! yeah!!! ) then keith finally came and he had burger king (mushroom tendergrill) and he super nice to make us the personalised handphone pouch. the night ended with packeting  tau huay at geylang :))

monday: went suntec with the same pple for porridge buffet. we were nuts to take so much food. but it was really nice and worth the money then we went toys R us.

      

then was movie session (bridget jones) at bryan's place. the movie had some irritating quiz that we didn complete. but overall, the movie was great! then chiong back to tampines to have astons. everyone got to rush. cindy rush for tuition, chee jeng rush for dinner at home, bryan and keith rush to book in. hahahhaa...

AND THAT SUMMARIZES ALL!!!!! this is a bloody long entry!!

finally we went night safari and celebrated bryan's birthday. luckily everything went smoothly :) details shall not elaborate cuz cindy blogged enough. i will post pictures for the sake of others reading my blog. hahaha..( Halloween Night :)) )

       

    

    

    

     

   

   

   

   

     

   


thats abt all folks :))